Hamlet Essay

After reading up to act three, we have seen hamlet change from a lost boy, to a mind bending man, then into someone with very little control. It reminds me of myself when studying. First I look at very thing I have to do and sigh," this is going to take so much work...", then I get to the point I have studied so much I could practically quote the book, then I get to the point of ," what do I even know anymore?" "I just need to take this freakin test and get it over with!" I think Hamlet and I go through the same phases similarly. And I think part of his crazy mode know everything mode started when he and Ophelia were watching the play and he starts spewing his knowledge and letting her know he knows what will happen before Irene happens, maybe to impress her or show himself off, be a little cocky. Then the next part when he finally sees Claudius react he knows he got him. He worked so hat to get to this point, just about the time the bell rings for me to get to my class and take the test. Then he is somehow delayed, but then goes to speak to his mother and his adrenaline is coursing through his veins, about the part when I sit down and put everything away. Then as he starts going off on his mother, I start flying through my test like no body's business. I have studied so hard and worked my butt off to get here and so has Hamlet. Then all the sudden he sees the curtain rustle and his chance, one shot, to get back at what Claudius did to his father. As he stabs his knife into Polonius, the fire bell goes off and water starts sprinkling all over my just finished test. And as polonius falls my answers from blots to smears to nothing. The class screams with joy as I start planning some studying to ace this test, even though I am bitter. Hamlet drags the body out of the thing the got in his way.

Hamlet shows a lot of evidence of being human, not crazy sociopath. He did reach a breaking point by some means, but in some ways he would become more frustrated with himself rather than others and kill himself because of those frustrations of not being able to honor his father or get te revenge he has been waiting so long to hand on a platter. The fact that Hanelt isn't suicidal shows how even though he is failing in his own mind, he is still most focused on the task at hand, not his feelings of despair and non self worth. With some many attempts and plans and obstacles, most would give up, but because Hamlet is so willing to do what the ghost tells him, he is un phased by the possible feelings of defeat, he is fueled by them which makes sense. However I think about a hurdler in a competition. They have their eye on the prize which is the finish line. The tension and focus builds, "On your mark, get set, go!" The gun fires twice, misfire, but being a rookie, you start going and nothing can stop you because all you can see if that waving finish line and no one in your periforal vision. And as you cross the finish line and throw your hands in the air, you see everyone else at the starting line and the staff motioning you to head back and do it all over again. Hamlet is in the place of that hurdler running back to the start and feeling defeated and cheated and not wanting to go on because you just spent everything you got and now have to do it all over again. 

I think hamlet thinks he has a purpose that he is focused on with the ferocity of a lion on a antelope. Whatever holes he stubbles in, edges that snag his clothes, he will show up half naked with twiste ankles and a dead Clauduis at his feet to present.